George Ttoouli reviews Rupert Loydell's Dear Mary (Shearsman 2017)
Poetry book - available from Shearsman
Time taken to read:
This was my toilet book for a few weeks while I was meeting a
deadline. For a week I kept getting stuck on the preface. Then I
switched to dipping in randomly, reading a few short pieces in a row
or one long piece, to get a sense of the mood, tone, etc. Finally, I
read the whole book (exc. preface) in one sitting while listening to
‘Dear Mary’ on repeat
– about 52min. I
still haven’t finished the preface, not for any fault of the
writing, just, well, it’s not poetry.
Time taken to review:
1hr (+ some editing)
Where found: Sent by
Shearsman. Possibly for review. It’s hard to tell with Rupert, he’s
been sending me things in the post for over a decade. I didn't even give him my new address.[1]
Transparency: Rupert
has been a long-standing affiliate for G&P.
We’ve published his solo work, some of his collaborations, various
bits and pieces. Also that aggressive interview,
which is still the most successful in the series, despite being the
first attempt. Rupert has also published some of my work at Stride
Magazine and smallminded books and also the other one which published the thing he did with Sarah Cave, which they've been talking about on G&P this week.
Some might say I’m too close to him, but this is a poetry-only love
affair, as far as I’m concerned. I don’t think we’ve met face
to face since, oh, about 2002, when he told me over a busy restaurant
table that I was trying to be ‘too clever’ in my poetry. I’ve
always appreciated that honesty and respect him enough to serve the
same back.
Time
started: 13:15-14:15 to draft + editing
Review:
Anyone
wondering where Luke Kennard gets his schtick from could save
themselves the bother of digging around and read Rupert Loydell's poetry.[2] Particularly
this new book, Dear Mary, just out from Shearsman (April 2017). The
hallmarks are all there: the strangely inviting personal voice, the
diaristic sense of someone's idiosyncratic life being recorded, a
headlong confrontation with religion (tho with less of LK's trademark doubt and self-castigation), and, of course, the wry humour.
But where Kennard's humour is the dominant note for a lot of his work
- a bass line from which he deviates, much to the disappointment of
his audiences, no doubt (stop trying to show range!) - Loydell's
poetry carries a less-than-obvious central emotional tone, from which
he can go many places. The work isn't pigeonhole-able in the same
way.
As
a result, it's easier to start with the complexity underwriting this
book: the multiply-threaded frame, the sense of a lived experience
undigested or filtered for 'meaning.' One of the pieces that most
brilliantly encapsulates Dear Mary's range arrives early on,
dedicated to David Miller. Starting as if it wants to be a prose
review mixed with diary, it shifts to a slim column of images, before
returning to a summative prose:
The
poet's book has served me well, and has sat literally and
conceptually alongside a short book on colour, a re-read novel of
occult training and enlightenment, and a fictional exploration of
moments when the celestial and human met or even touched.
('"A
Process of Discovery"' - the title has quotation marks to denote
its origin as a title from Miller).
I
didn't check the notes before reading and assumed the book on colour
was Wittgenstein's Remarks on Colour (which serves as the title of
one of Dear Mary's later poems). The notes tell me otherwise
- it's not entirely significant however. What's obvious is how
well Loydell weaves these aesthetic and personal elements through the book, using journal styles and minimalism and a range of other modes, somehow held together by a deft complexity of tone and emotion.
Colour
is the strongest, early feature-of-significance to the poems. Part of the
book might be taken as a discourse on painting, on sensory visuals,
on the meaning of colour preferences. An early poem ('Lost in
Colour') notes, presumably, Loydell's artistic training and how to
others he seemed "seduced by colour" - a criticism he wears
proudly. (The moment is reminiscent, to me at least, of Robin Blaser
sharing Charles Olson's accusation, that Blaser's supposedly rubbish
with syntax, in a collection called Syntax.) Of course, the play with voices elsewhere suggests I'm just making a rookie mistake, associating the training with the author's biography, but that's the mode at the beginning: lyrical memoir.
Yet
this colour-conversation is where the book's 'realism' or
'interpretability' begins to break down for me. Ostensibly, we're led
in the first half of the collection through Loydell's love affair
with Italian Renaissance paintings of Mary and the Annunciation,
while on holiday in Tuscany. He paints, he swims, he mucks about with
colours, he drags his family on long drives to see his favourite
paintings in remote churches, only to find the churches closed and no
one around to let them in... If you ask me, Loydell must be an
insufferable person to go on holiday with.
But
this is a projection, a reconstruction. By the mid-point in the book
I found myself thinking Loydell's never been to Italy in his life.
The whole thing is a set up. All the artists and poets and critics
referenced are actually twentieth century or more recent: Francis
Bacon, Deborah Turbeville, David Hart, David Toop, David Batchelor (a
lot of Davids) - the 'Fra Angelico' is Diane Cole Ahl's, not some
16thC maestro.
The
'aha!' moment for me is in a piece called 'The Pictures Started to
Instruct Me': "I wanted all the colours to be present at once. /
... How difficult it becomes when one / tries to get very close to
the facts". This is not real representation, but an
interrogation of how difficult it is to turn the real world into art.
The danger then is that you start to believe these unreal
representations more than the world itself.
Moments
of real experience in the first half of the collection contribute to
a sense of the ridiculousness of artistic living. At the end of the
poem for David Miller, the painter-poet gives up for a bit, decides
to go for a swim: "A startled lizard runs from the sudden
splash." The juxtaposition is somewhat ridiculous because the
poem has barely made an attempt to locate the poet spatially in
Tuscany. Is he in the sea? A lake? A pool? Where the hell is the
lizard and how has the painter-poet even noticed it, if he's jumping
into the water? The perspective is all shot through: that's the
point: this isn't trying to represent reality. It's interrogating the
ease at which we are 'seduced by colour' when we read, or view art.
Which
then leads me to the second thread: "a fictional moment when the
celestial and the human met or even touched". The 'Mary' of the
title is, unobviously, a composite. The notes here reveal the lyrics
of Steve Miller's 'Dear Mary' are themselves collaged from the lyrics
of several other musicians' songs.[3] So too this Mary, filtering
multiple Marys into a composite; they're not really about Mary
herself, most of the time, but about the process of hunting down what
Mary means, building that picture from multiple sources, making
idiosyncratic connections and compiling them into something that
seems believable enough to be real, but in fact, like the worlds
built in each painting, is just another subjective version of the
world, a new world, a world-in-itself.
This
sense establishes itself and then, having prepped you
through a kind of uncanny accrual of not-quite-right glitches in the
matrix, we're offered the first proper discomfort provided by a number of long pieces: 'Shadow
Triptych' after Francis Bacon. The three parts are not numbered, and
the columns are, in turn, located to the left hand side of the page,
the centre and the right, each in straight-edged columns, like the
panels of a triptych. The series is in fact a kind of essay, or
series of essays. And it's here (and in the later long pieces,
particularly 'My Paper Aunt') where the collection's occult
influences seem most prevalent.
The
essay combines all the threads I've emphasised, but the tone shifts
to something unnerving: the tones of Bacon's paintings, the fleshy
torture, the sense of darkness inside those faceless jumbles of
tendon and muscle. The notes to the poem are a long list of
influences, including Bacon's paintings, of course, but also,
surprisingly Haruki Murakami's A Wild Sheep Chase' and,
unsurprisingly, E.M. Cioran's The Trouble with Being Born. I wouldn't
be surprised to learn the entire 'Shadow Triptych' is a cento, but
then, that's the beauty of the whole collection: it never lets you
shake off the createdness of its 'world,' and that its 'world' is
nothing more than the subjective experiences of just one person,
nexused through many other subjectivities. (Nothing more! Hah!)
That
said, there's more here than merely listening to someone else's
heartbeat-in-language. That's not the point. I started with a
comparison to Kennard at the beginning (my association, deployed in
expectation (some of) our reader(s) might be familiar), I'll deviate back
there now. There are a few poems here that I almost took as
sacriligeous. In one, Mary goes online dating while Joseph's out. An
angel shows up and "When he disrobed, it was a bit of a shock to
see what he'd kept hidden" ('Online Dating Annunciation').
Later, there's 'Alien Annunciation': "according to Mary her
pet's barking continued to get louder and louder throughout the
visitation." If these had been part of a novella by, say, Colm
Toibin, there'd probably have been a witch hunt. Instead, located
here, there's a gentility and a kindness - a making senseness to how
they form part of the picture of someone trying to make sense of a
celestial encounter with the human, the real. The need to make sense,
even where it transcends understanding.
These
parts are perhaps closest to the aforementioned Kennardian absurdism.
Tonally, however, they range out of easy laughter. There's a batch of
poems in the second half of the book where humour seems to be the
dominant mode, but in context of what's gone before, particular the
doomy triptych, it's hard to take them as release or relief.
Or
perhaps they're a temporary relief. A bit like the process-driven
pieces. A few poems smack of
googlisms, lists heavy with
repetition and wild juxtaposition, where the ego shines out from the
cracks between curated pieces, rather than glowing in the
voice-driven language. The more deceptive pieces, the ones where the
voice does a very good job of sounding familiar, are the places where
I found myself least secure. The process-driven stuff - flarf,
Oulipo, those conscious moments of trying to get outside of
representational, first person lyric conventions - feels, to me, like
it has had its day, especially here, with
Dear Mary's unstable eye/I.
Those diary pieces, so deceptively inviting, stretch the lyric mode
into strange places, finding room to manoeuvre a personal personality
within the constraints of very poetry-looking poetry.
Actually,
if I had to give you an accurate sense of this book, I'd say, it's a
bit like wearing a Rupert-suit for an hour. Yes, really; this is
poetry as a record of experience, through
and through: lived moments coupled to the reflections on, the
long-running tracks of thought to which one person idiosyncratically
returns, time and again, coupled to a private journalism, curated
through a totalising subjectivity, but one which is always overstretching the rigidity of those boundaries with new perspectives, alternative subjectivities entering through, melding with the pluralist eye/I.
The poems in Dear Mary are knitted
from the real experience of a person, filtered through the alembic
known as Rupert Loydell and passed on, partial, imperfect, formed
into meanings and moments, against which you'll find a flicker of
what it means to be not-yourself, for just a moment. If that sounds a
little bit Buffalo Bill, well, maybe that's fair enough: it's just
the wrong side of understandable to leave me with an uncanny feeling of having
been dropped into something too familiar to be knowable.
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[1] This is a lie, of course, and I should also add, I've had some delightful things in the post from Rupert, including a dozen or more issues from small-minded books.
[2] The fact check elves (OK, read: Rupert) notes that Kennard and Nathan Thompson and Rupert were all associated around Exeter at some point, along with people like Andy Brown (still there) and Alasdair Paterson (not sure if he's still there), latter of whom used to run a reading event, where perhaps they fraternised. The influence is speculation on my part. Also, I've slightly edited the passive aggressive, 'I miss you, Luke' out of the first sentence of the review, for reasons just stated.
[3] My rush job missed the fact that it isn't Steve Miller's song that's collaged, but Rupert's poem of the same title.